I’m so very sorry
That I’m doing this to you
That I’m doing this to myself
I didn’t want to
I don’t want to
I wish I wasn’t
But I just can’t stop
The feelings are intoxicating
They were at least
Now I need them to get by
It hurts
It hurts a lot
I can’t help but continue
I can’t turn my life around
I’m stuck now
I don’t want to go back
To how I was
My emotions won’t let me
It feels so wonderful
Yet terrible at the same time
I’m sorry that I’m leaning on you
But not taking your advice
I’m sorry that I can’t help myself
I wish that I was different
I wish that I didn’t feel this need
Wishes don’t affect reality
Life is as it is
Darling, I’m so sorry