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A Bloody Body and A Lot of Scary Scars

May 15, 2017

A bloody body
and a lot of
scary scars,
was never
something
i wanted to be.

i never wanted
my stomach,
or arms,
to be decorated
with any type of scar.

Some are healing.
That is true.
But,
to be completely honest,
anytime I see that
I make sure
to cut deeper than before,
and make them once again
new.

i realize
that this
is not just my doing.
Because it turns out
that the blade is my hands,
was crafted from
the words of another.

another thing i never
wished to happen to me,
was that my once beautiful body
would be turned
into a blood bath.

I can,
and forever will,
feel the drips and dryness
from the scarlet red.
No matter
how hard I scrub.

I may look clean,
but i feel very dirty.

I now know
that every scary scar
on my bloody body,
was caused
by the beaten bullies
and their words
that turned out to be
Blades.

The author's comments:

My Poem Explanation
My poem is a free verse and spoken word poem. "A Bloody Body and A Lot of Scary Scars" is a poem involving three different topics. These topics would include: suicide, self-harm, and bullying. I wrote this poem about those three topics because they are something I am extremely close to. In my poem I didn’t capitalize the letter "I" many times throughout it for one reason. I didn’t capitalize the letter because it symbolizes something else. The letter "I" is used when you are speaking about yourself. I did use it for that reason, but I made it a smaller letter to show that I'm talking about my younger self. A good example is stanza seven. It's a good example because it talks about how I look clean, but feel dirty. I used the smaller "I" to show that my younger self wouldn’t have wanted it, but my current self doesn’t really care. It also shows that my current self looks clean, but my younger self feels dirty. I stared to capitalize the letter after stanza three to show that now I'm talking about my current self. I capitalized blades in the last stanza because my current self would consider it to have an unknown name. To respect it, even if I don’t know its name, I capitalized the name we know.
I explained blades as words in stanza four because people don’t drive themselves to suicide or self-harm. Other people do that for them. Those people can include family, friends, or people they meet. The words they speak can hurt someone so bad in an emotional way, that they will take it out on themselves. Someone does not just think about hurting themselves without a reason. I'm telling the truth when I saw words hurt more than a blade can. They hurt more because they are the reason the blade appeared in the first place.
I used the alliteration of the letter "b" because it sounds a little bit like a punch. I used the one that sounded like a punch because that's what you get when you hear horrible words about yourself. Especially when they come from someone you thought cared. It's also what you get when you put a blade to your own skin for the first time. I also used the alliteration of the letter "s" a lot because it sounds like something sinister. It sounds like what your biggest fear would use a lot. That is what a scar is. It is something that frightens you anytime you look at it. It's not scary because of the way it looks, it's scary because of the reason you put it there.


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