It’s under lavender
Skies
Like this one
That I remember
The calm flow
Of water,
The bite
Of twigs,
Soft against
The outside
I avoided
So much.

The shock
Of the
Stream
Offending
My clothes,
Laughing
As I popped
Back Up.

How
Good it felt
To hug you,
To
Hold on
And not
Let go.

I must
Be crazy.

But even so,
There’s nothing
Wrong with that.

For once
In my life,
I found someone
I deserve.

I know you
Have baggage,
And to be fair,
So do I.

But I want
To help.

Help you find
Happiness
Without
The fine print.

I might be
Biting off
More than I
Can chew,
But I’ve
Done it
Before.

And this
Is more
Than
Redeeming
Myself;
This is about
Doing what
Feels right
Despite
Everything.

Helping you
While I
Help myself.

I’ve always
Been the kind
To be
Selfish
Until the
Right person
Comes along.

And then
I sell off
Every
Last
P
I
E
C
E
Of me
Because
At the end
Of the day,
My happiness
Comes as
A product
Of the
Happiness
Of the
One
I care
For.

And I
Don’t
Want to
Seem
Clingy,
And I
Don’t
Want
To scare
You.

Honestly,
I’m afraid
I already
Have.

But this
Is more
Of an
Explanation
Of myself.

I am
Eternally
Trapped
In the past.

I lament
In the memory
Of my
First kiss,
Who I
Was with.

And pretending
That I’ve
Completely
Moved on
From her
Would be
A lie.

I’m sure
Me feeling
Like a
Fugitive
Over my
Own
Emotions
Is foolish,
But such
Is my nature
That feelings
Should be
Considered
At a minimum.

I suppose
It’s true
That opposites
Attract
After all.

But understand
That I’ve been
Where you’ve
Been,
May still
Be there,
And I
Will Do
Everything
In my
Power
To help you
To the
Best
Of my
Ability,
Because I
Care
And I don’t
Want there
To be a
Single
Doubt
In your
Mind
About where
My heart
Lies.

I know
The past
Is the
Past,
And in
My experience
Traveling to
What once
Was
Is like
Turning
A blade
Against
Myself.

I do
Miss her.

But she’s gone
And
We’re here
Now.

Now
Is the
Unknown
Variable;
I can
Change it,
I might
Have the
Control
I thought
I lacked.

And I want
To make it
As good
As possible
For the
Both of
Us.

Because
After
All this,
We each
Deserve
Nothing
Less.