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January 9, 2009
By foreverdreaming14 PLATINUM, Redmond, Washington
foreverdreaming14 PLATINUM, Redmond, Washington
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My mouth moves in silent prayer,
While sweat pools, cooling on my face.
Serenity, I don’t know the feeling,
Only my own anxieties tinting my vision in icy blue.
My breath comes out in gasps,
Fear clouding my vision, burning metallic in my throat.
I cannot remember what they said in church,
It never struck a chord,
I never thought that I
Would find myself here,
Kneeling at the foot of my bed,
My knees slowly going numb,
And the clock tick-tick-ticking in my ear.
When you talk to God, what do you say?
When you have left the phone off the hook for so long?
Forgetting about old what’s-his-name when things are going fine.
What would he say if he answered at all?
I never thought I would want this,
Never thought that I would need
Something, anything, to keep my fear away.
Never thought I would look to my own ­muttered words,
For promises and everything-will-be-all-rights.
And now that I’m here,
I’m feeling foolish,
Talking to my walls,
And now I wonder if there is anything really there at all.



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hope95 SILVER said...
on Aug. 26 2011 at 10:39 pm
hope95 SILVER, Hamilton, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
life is hard but death is cruel so put your big girl boots on and deal with it. my life has been harsh but im learning to deal with it one day at a time. life is like a box of chocolates, you never know watchya gonna get:)

n i rlly love this poem;)

 


hope95 SILVER said...
on Aug. 26 2011 at 10:38 pm
hope95 SILVER, Hamilton, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
life is hard but death is cruel so put your big girl boots on and deal with it. my life has been harsh but im learning to deal with it one day at a time. life is like a box of chocolates, you never know watchya gonna get:)

i rlly agree. im actually having some trouble wit that now

on Aug. 26 2011 at 7:29 pm
Angeleyes12 SILVER, Hatfield, Pennsylvania
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Wow i totally agree with you. The poem was beautiful too :)

on May. 4 2011 at 10:11 pm
maxxykat94 PLATINUM, Centreville, Virginia
29 articles 4 photos 18 comments

Favorite Quote:
Do everything with excellence.

I agree with everyone - this poem is amazing! Very honest and beautifully so. Your questions are very real anad relatable. As someone else offered, drop me a comment and i'd be glad to chat sometime. :]

on Nov. 13 2010 at 8:51 am
sillywillysooz GOLD, Grantsville, Utah
15 articles 60 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
"never let the fear of striking out, ever keep you from playing the game"

this poem is amazing!

on Jul. 26 2010 at 2:38 pm
KirstynAlexandra PLATINUM, Baltimore, Maryland
24 articles 0 photos 71 comments

Favorite Quote:
\"I\'m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can\'t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don\'t deserve me at my best.\"
— Marilyn Monroe

Imagination is more important than knowledge...
Albert Einstein

i love this poem. it's very deep and thoughtful. keep it up! Plz read my pieces :)

on May. 9 2010 at 1:33 pm
KaiteyAmber SILVER, Meadville, Pennsylvania
6 articles 0 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Keep your face to the sun, then you wont see a shadow." - Helen Keller
" In a world filled with hate, We must dare to hope." - M. Jackson

That is questionable-maRAWR.   But i love this poem it is really good. keep it up =D

maRAWR GOLD said...
on May. 5 2010 at 2:33 pm
maRAWR GOLD, Greeley, Colorado
14 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"all you need is love" -the beatles =)

'when you talk to god, what do you say?'- i love that! do you even have to say anything, though, since he'll know what you're going to say anyway?

on Feb. 21 2010 at 12:19 pm
mandielynnrose GOLD, Tucson, Arizona
10 articles 0 photos 32 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

I've felt exactly the same and when i do i feel guilty of a crime- like im using Him cause I only pray when things go bad.

jan15roy said...
on Feb. 17 2010 at 11:13 pm
Just keep talking to him. He is there, he is everywhere. Believe in him. The faith of a mustard seed can move mountains!

on Feb. 4 2010 at 8:30 am
iAmTheStardust PLATINUM, Moon Twp., Pennsylvania
36 articles 1 photo 94 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The prettiest flowers grow in the biggest pile of manure."

this poem, it was absolutely incredible. if you really feel this way, leave me a comment and we can talk. i love to help ppl....

on Dec. 2 2009 at 3:00 pm
AbbotRabbit GOLD, Abolana, District Of Columbia
11 articles 0 photos 1028 comments

Favorite Quote:
This poem has great flow and insight.
I really enjoyed it.
Lovely poem darling =]
-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-
XxIll tell you Im an orphan after you meet myy familyXx

This poem has great flow and insight.

I really enjoyed it.

Lovely poem darling =]

-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-

XxDear Mr. President Let Meh Tell You 'Bout Hard Work Building A Bed Out Of A Cardbord BoxXx

decouvrir GOLD said...
on Nov. 25 2009 at 12:18 pm
decouvrir GOLD, Cedar Park, Texas
11 articles 0 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Music is a total constant. That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in your or the world, that one song says the same, just like that moment.” -Sarah Dessen

Yea its really an amazing feeling to have that kind of love and existence but He's real and He's there all the time He will always be there for you

Zero_K DIAMOND said...
on Nov. 16 2009 at 4:37 pm
Zero_K DIAMOND, Moosic, Pennsylvania
83 articles 0 photos 435 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life's no fun if you're not insane, otherwise you grow up to be an accountant." -Moi

Beautiful. I have often wondered whether there is someone else out there who knows more than us. For me, it is my Goddess. May you find peace with whatever you believe.

-Blessed Be!

+++ZERO+++

on Nov. 4 2009 at 2:56 pm
AbbotRabbit GOLD, Abolana, District Of Columbia
11 articles 0 photos 1028 comments

Favorite Quote:
This poem has great flow and insight.
I really enjoyed it.
Lovely poem darling =]
-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-
XxIll tell you Im an orphan after you meet myy familyXx

Great meaning and insight. I loved it.

Beautiful poem darling=]

-Please check out my poems that I have posted it would be greatly apreciated.

SaraB. GOLD said...
on Jul. 8 2009 at 2:51 pm
SaraB. GOLD, Phoenix, Arizona
12 articles 6 photos 215 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Whatever you are, be a good one" Abraham Lincoln

Yes, there is someone there besides the walls. He is the way, the truth, and the light. He has turned my life around for the better, and I never thought I'd be a Christian, but God had other plans, so here I am and I'm saved. If you want to talk to me about it, please do.

on Jun. 22 2009 at 8:24 pm
foreverdreaming14 PLATINUM, Redmond, Washington
44 articles 0 photos 11 comments
go ahead

on Jun. 19 2009 at 7:17 pm
Julianne Davis BRONZE, Hamilton, Ohio
2 articles 0 photos 2 comments
Hey me and my band are trying to write lyrics and its not working. could i create this poem into a song?!?