This is a letter to my ex
A sorry for the time I poured
My heart and soul
Into a next
My heart and soul
That was locked in hers
I pretended it was his
And that he was the cure
But he wasn't
I tried to believe it was okay
Because she had her
But it wasn't until she gone away
And eventually he gone away too
That I realized the pain I put you through
Don't pay mind to the nights
I fell asleep in tears
Or the nights I didn't sleep at all
Because when she left me
For her
I blamed myself
For everything
And I know that it was a regret she made
After all those months
My heart called out her name
We'd say nothing
And walk past each other like nothing
Because what was left was nothing
Yet everything was left to say
But lets not discuss the words we failed to say
Lets discuss the words we actually said
Because in the end of the maze
We were in
We were successful in falling in love
Yet again
Something told me that
This time would be different
And it was,
Different in the most beautiful way imagined
And also the worst way
Because first cam elove
Then came tragedy
And tragedy was just a pinch
Of the mess we made
When our love
Became a battlefeild
And when all was said and done
We'd stay hand in hand
Walking around the world
As if it were ours
I truly believed that
Nothing could tear us apart
That forever could be written
Through our names in the stars
That the promised sealed
In the ring that hung around my neck
Would always never be broken
But June came around again
And it was okay
Great actually
Something about August
Pushed us away
Not too far
But enough to take a break
See I knew the break was
Put in place
Because it was needed
But I read break and thought break-up
Acted as if she wasn't my girlfriend
When she needed me the most
I was giving her space
She asked for it
I just didn't see that it wasn't
The space she wanted
But what other space can you give
And I blamed myself
For not knowing the type of space
Conversations got weirdly anit-social
In a matter of seconds
Where we stood wasn't hand in hand
But walking back to each others' hands
Slowly... still walking
Atleast that's what I thought
I guess I was walking on my own
Towards her
And she was walking away
And while I pretended I was okay
She was really leaving me
She asked me to wait
To put what we had on hold
Because of yet another girl
I thought I could
But I was wrong
I felt it was easier to
Let her go
Than stay to wait
So goodbye came
To end the mess
We've created through
Our steps...
And no matter how much I wish
Things could've been fixed
I was glad
And maybe a little relieved
That we were finally
Put to rest.