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The Truth About How I Feel

July 25, 2014
By C.N.M. GOLD, Carteret, New Jersey
C.N.M. GOLD, Carteret, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;You can close your eyes to the things you don&#039;t want to see, but you can&#039;t close your heart to the things you don&#039;t want to feel.&quot; <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Johnny Depp


Okay so, apparently love is blind, or maybe it's just me. Everyone saw it and said we had chemistry. For the past 11 years, you made it seem like you didn't like me at all. But you told your sister the truth and harder I decided to fall. They all saw the twinkle and now I'm starting to see the spark. You showed me the light when I thought it was dark. You make me smile with just one look. I feel like our friendship is the stereotypical romance book. Two best friends secretly love each other, everyone knows but the other. You hide your feelings so well, if only it was earlier I knew you fell. It would've been different, the answer would've been yes when Will asked me if we were together while I was wearing that pretty dress. We would've been different if only the answer was yes, I know for a fact our relationship would be a success. We were meant to be together, everyone knows it. When your hand is in mine, it is the perfect fit. All day I have been thinking about all the things I have been dreaming. It helped me notice things I didn't know before. For example, you are one person I know who sleeps but doesn't snore. It's one of the things I love about you. I just wish you showed your feelings too. I hate you for being a dude and I hate you for being you. I hate you for not sharing your feelings that are obviously true. I can't imagine a life without you, it just wouldn't be a life. One day I hope that we could become husband and wife. Every time I do something I always make sure it doesn't result in losing you. You're my best friend and I love you. I want to tell you how I feel but I'm afraid you'll roll away like a wheel. We have a bond that not even your best friend can break. If it ever does, I'll stab myself in the heart with a stake. We grew up together, been friends since we were babies. You're the only one who knows I'm crazy on the daily.


The author's comments:
I started having strong feelings for my best friend. His sister said he felt the same way but he wasn't showing it.

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C.N.M. GOLD said...
on Jul. 30 2014 at 9:09 am
C.N.M. GOLD, Carteret, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;You can close your eyes to the things you don&#039;t want to see, but you can&#039;t close your heart to the things you don&#039;t want to feel.&quot; <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Johnny Depp

Lol, maybe we will get married. You never know.

on Jul. 29 2014 at 9:29 pm
Bri_Christine PLATINUM, DuBois, Pennsylvania
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Everyone says you should marry your best friend!!  Give time and enjoy the friendship :)  in the end, it's all the same!  Your poem was super enjoyable by the way!!

C.N.M. GOLD said...
on Jul. 28 2014 at 6:09 pm
C.N.M. GOLD, Carteret, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;You can close your eyes to the things you don&#039;t want to see, but you can&#039;t close your heart to the things you don&#039;t want to feel.&quot; <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Johnny Depp

Im not even sure he likes me in that way. His sister says he does and his mom says he does but he just looks at me as a friend

on Jul. 28 2014 at 2:43 pm
Bri_Christine PLATINUM, DuBois, Pennsylvania
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I can relate to this a million times over!!  Don't let him get away....it's the most earth shattering thing you will ever experience.

kanade SILVER said...
on Jul. 26 2014 at 4:19 pm
kanade SILVER, Missoula, Montana
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Favorite Quote:
In a society that worships love, freedom and beauty, dance is sacred. It is a prayer for the future, a remembrance of the past, and a joyful exclamation of thanks for the present.<br /> -Atwater-Rhoides, Ameila

I love this poem. It made me smile. 

C.N.M. GOLD said...
on Jul. 26 2014 at 9:18 am
C.N.M. GOLD, Carteret, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;You can close your eyes to the things you don&#039;t want to see, but you can&#039;t close your heart to the things you don&#039;t want to feel.&quot; <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Johnny Depp

That's so sweet. Thank you so much!

on Jul. 25 2014 at 11:29 pm
___averylynn_____ SILVER, Waterford, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
Look closely at the present you are constructing. It should look like the future you are dreaming. - Alice Walker.<br /> What you wear is your billboard. So, what are you advertising?

This was fantastic and heart warming.