Love- an intense feeling of deep affection.
I cannot feel; I do not have feelings. I do not love. I do not cry. People do not understand. Love is scary. Love is dangerous. Love is taking a step into the unknown. I do not want to take that step. I am not a coward. Or a wimp. I am smart. Loving someone is allowing yourself to be vulnerable. Open. Dependable. But what if you leave? What if who you love leaves? Are you happy? Are you open? You are vulnerable. Weak. Alone. Yes I want a relationship one day, but for the fun of it. I want to be with someone just to be with them. I want to like someone and have nice times with them, but I will not ever love them. I will not succumb myself to the twisted game. Love is complicated. Stupid. Difficult. Painful.
Love is never worth it.