You are the only pain
left in me.
Pain,
that makes me cry out loud
at odd hours of late winter nights.
Pain,
as hard as it was,
when you left.
Pain,
that tried hard to teach me
how to stop loving anyone
as much as life itself:
poor thing,it could never
really do it.
You are the only memory
left in me,
of pain itself
You were pain:
when I loved you,
I never had enough
for others,
I gave it all to you.
You are pain:
the moments you gave me
to think and rethink about,
they burn inside ma heart
killing me bit by bit
you'll remain pain:
your dark smile is
printed on ma bare mind,
too deep to get faded.
I pity ma puny heart
that tries to make me believe
You are still mine.
but,the truth is too big to hide,
you dont belong to me,
neither your heart
nor your thoughts;
absolute nothing.
I tell myself,
I am done with you.
Yes,I am.
but, just a little of that pain
remains forever,
your killing smile,
the only pain you have left
in me.
no more failures,
no more betrayals.
just pain,pain and pain
will do,
as I vanish away slowly,
just like another leaf of autumn.