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Mentally unstable
When your heart stopped beating
I lost my rhythm (all rhythm)
I’ve become numb
Bleeding inside
My heart went cold
Impossible,
How you made me whole.
Incomprehensible,
How my world grew cold.
See now I weep,
In front of your tomb,
My future’s doomed,
If tis without you I must live it through.
In front of your grave
I would have given
My life this very instant;
For just a smile,
And a last goodbye.
Oh how I crave to hear your voice
How it brings me solace,
Calms the storms inside me,
Kills the pain.
Your sweet embrace
Made me sane
You were so brave
To have loved me
Or maybe crazy
And fascinated by my ways irrationally bizarre ways
Now I face the urge to see you
To see your well wrapped cranium
Surrendering to impulses
To feel you again
I dig deep within the soils
A Hysterical laughter filled the air
Unaware it was my own
I screamed in to the nothingness,
Replying to the insolent voice
That was my very own.
“Silence demon!
this land is fair.
Silence demon!
And learn to bear
A minute of silence for those who lay
And bare no more the burdens of this life
Silence demons!
My wife lies here,
Ever so near”
Apathy settles in
As I realize now,
I’ve offended myself
With such bruiting matter as a mad man would
I dig in faster, deeper,
Waiting is a pain
I dig in to the soil faster
I reach your coffin
All bloody and muddy
My nails are disconnected
Form my cold twisted and broken fingers
So there again
Behind a closed door
There you are again lying there
Like you've done for so long
So close to you I nearly die
I hear your voice
Screaming in terror
You breathe again??!!??
I dare not answer...
Yet again question my own infallibility…I dare not…
To hell with the pain
I’ll feel when I’ll rip the door
All to see you again
The pain is great
But all worth it
My mind sinks in to wonder
The world is right again
I found your voice
The sun shines again
I’ve made my choice
Rejoiced once more
I am.
No more of this storm
You’ve returned to me
You voice is a symphony
Isolating the madness
Now mending its way in to my heart
Pulsing through my being
Bringing me back to the warm Thumb-Thumbs
Makin my chest feel like a drum
YES! I said it
Despite my appearance
I am a human being
With a broken figure
An arch shaped back
My despicable face
Completely disfigured
Crooked nose (not exactly the one I chose)
Unfair skin
And bald squall
Red and uneven eyes
Who lack of rest....
Yet again in the past you didn’t fear me
And now still
You yearn to be with me
AND now yes now I dare to define myself as a human being
Darkness immerged
Silence set upon me
Your voice is unheard to me
A pause…
Maybe to catch your breath??!!??
I wait fingers still bleeding
“Sing, Sing to me
Once more
Scream let me hear your voice!!!”
I sob through the closed door
Your voice I hear no more
Your coffin door
I pushed right open to find you skeleton
Pest infested
Flesh eating maggots,
Discomposed and broken.
Apathy ,Sandness,joy
All together take a hold of me
Hysteria is where I stand.
Distant voices
Of man and dogs coming my way
My heart lies with you
Insane I might be,
but I couldn’t dare give
away the last few minutes
i'de have with you before im taken away
I’d have with you
Before I’m taken away
So in a quick gesture
A kiss
I lay upon your maggot infested lips
A kiss
That lasted longer then I can tell
A kiss
That shall be but the ending of our tale.
Struck by discuss
I repulsively reject
The maggots, worms feeding on dead tissues,
Making their way,
Into my nearly open mouth.
Now I see more clearly
What the years have done to you
Sudden Rage takes a hold of me
Grabbing a blad
stabbing her countlessly,
Like I did the time before
Joy fills my heart once more.
I hear him again
The demons in my head
“stab her once more
Make sure she's dead!!!”
Said a voice resembling mine
Echoing in my mind
Hysteria is where I stand
I loved her its true
My heart yearn for her
She was all I ever wanted
All I ever needed
But now I m tormented
by the thoughts that I meant be
The thought that I maybe…
The thought that I am
The one who took her soul
Who turned her into mold?
We were meant to be,
how I loved her so dearly.
“But did she love you,
Was her love true??”
This question out of the bleu
the demon concluded.
The demon has grew.
My hand no more
I had control of
So the blade once more
pierced through her heart.
“Make her bleed
take her heart out!!!”
The voice repeated once more
in my head like it did many times before
Hit in the head
I landed in her bed
The coffin in which she laid.
The distant voices
Of man and dogs form before
Finally arrived
Imprisoned
Once more I am
imprisoned
once more till the very end
It’s true what they once said to me
Insanity has consumed me
The voices in my head,
Have misled me.
I am my own enemy
I’m still stuck in insanity.
Blame me if you wish
If I had bewitched
You mind
In to my twisted tale
But just remember this
I am nothing more than a man
A tad bit disabled
A tad much more mentally unstable
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This is the end of my story
Hope it didn’t seem to boring
Cuz if it did I know where you be living
So don’t make me come and get even
lolll im just kidding