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I Opened Up My Body MAG

August 13, 2010
By A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
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I pulled all the painted buttons out of their buttonholes.
I stood in front of the mirror so that I could watch.
It hurt a little more than I expected.
I'd never tried to open up myself before.
I watched fingers tugging at my skin.
It slowly pulled apart from the rest of me.
Hanging lifeless at my sides, like an old, misshapen shirt.
I looked at where my heart should have been.
I could feel the familiar thumping when my hand touched my chest.
But what my fingers where touching was something else.
Not an organ, nothing like in the anatomy books.
I wondered if they had ever really opened up a person.
I saw in the mirror a glowing mass of swirling sawdust.
That's what it looked like.
It felt solid to the touch, although my fingers sensed the movement.
I looked to see if I could see my lungs.
They were barely visible.
Streamers of black with a few strings of turquoise, pulsating as I breathed in and out.
It was my stomach confused me.
I thought there would be a lot more to it.
But no, it was just a mass of shining light.
Strange that light can be a solid.
I wondered why the scientists and doctors had separated such a beautiful thing into organs.
I thought to look at my brain, but I hadn't unbuttoned my head.
They had said not to open yourself up too much.
They advised not to do so at all but I had not been able to resist.
I buttoned up my shell again.
The skin took a minute to readjust.
I looked in the mirror and seemed perfectly fine.
To my eyes, at least.

The author's comments:
I'm trying to find myself. I'm not all the way there, but I've begun my journey. I ask you to do the same. What you will find will be beautiful in a strange, unearthly way. I promise.

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on Aug. 4 2011 at 6:21 pm
xximjustmexx PLATINUM, Oak Forest, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
There's no god. There's no religion. There's only life, what you do with YOUR life, who YOU let affect YOUR life. Bad things happen to everyone, you just have to learn to deal with them.

i absolutely love the last line I looked in the mirror and seemed perfectly fine. To my eyes at least. That one line sums up the entire poem. Very good.

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on Jul. 16 2011 at 3:57 pm
inkers GOLD, Midland, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"And the lamplight gloating o'er him threw his shadow on the floor... and my soul from out that shadow... shall be lifted, nevermore!" - Poe

What a gorgeous poem and idea. I could see everything as you saw it. The imagery in this is absolutely stunning, and I just love this. I hope this gets into a book someday. I hope this gets famous. Wonderful job. <3

on Oct. 9 2010 at 10:28 am
wordjunkie BRONZE, Houston, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Those who say it can't be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.

never read anything like it, an i read an abnormal amount of books. this is amazing...

on Oct. 3 2010 at 8:44 pm
Alcanno DIAMOND, Mexia, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is
made up of."

-- Bruce Lee

This is so original and unique - I've never read anything like it. It really made me think and I LOVE that. Great writing!

on Sep. 18 2010 at 6:22 pm
A.Bekah.Girl GOLD, Menlo Park, California
17 articles 0 photos 29 comments
thanks. to make it feel kind of unfinished, i guess. like there's more. everything else is more definite in comparison...

on Sep. 18 2010 at 6:09 pm
apocalyptigirl BRONZE, Staunton, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"DON'T PANIC." ~from The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

WOW. This was so cool...magical realism and departures from conventional ways of looking at reality are awesome, btw. :) What stood out to me was, Why does every line have a period on the end except for the last? Did you mean to do that, and if so, why?