Chest tightness and chest pain as a physical manifestation of anxiety. Feelings of alienation and innate 'wrongness' ingrained into your core from birth. The common expression, 'lamb to the slaughter', where you seem to be both the one walking yourself into the water and the one fighting against drowning—weighed down by your own self. The Black Sea, with its history of contamination, is one my close family in Russia would consistently end up sick from every year. The distinction between the definitions of the words 'born' and 'borne', as in coming to existence as a result of birth as opposed to bearing something. Body imagery entwined with a tone of chronic uneasiness, desire for release, inner turmoil, and heaviness permeating everything you feel you are.