Growing up I always thought that I had to always be perfect and that if I told anyone I was sad I would be judged. It's hard to think that way as a 10 year old. For almost 8 years I've been trying to figure out how to express my feelings and tell people why I'm upset. I have not yet perfected it. My mom always tells me “you can tell us when you are upset. But you aren't allowed to take it out on us.” Ok, that's helpful.. Don't take your sadness out on family members. In my head that meant “Don't be sad around family, don't say anything. You're fine”  People don't understand but trying to hide every single emotion you have is kind of hard. Bottling up everything you have going on until one day you crack. But you can't, Because you can't take it out on your family. Which really means “Don't show emotions.” In this past year I have finally learned how to open up to my family without taking my anger and sadness out on the rest of the people in my house. It feels good being able to talk about why I'm sad.