sometimes i can feel my heart racing

i thought i would be happy when this finally happened

im so angry and i can’t understand

if you could hold out for 14 years

why couldn’t you hold out for another four?

I hate to think about it 

I hate the way it makes me feel

am I making this all about me?

I wonder if i’m too self centered

because sometimes I can’t breathe 

and i just want to know

what feeling good feels like

because it’s been so long

and I can’t remember what it is 

I was fine and then my world was flipped

how could they do this if they really love me?

all I can think is it’s my fault

and I can’t help but feel like

I should’ve just dealt on my own

screw making amends and being happy

my whole life is already f*cked anyway

I hate coming to school

I hate being at home

there’s no place for me to be 

and no time for me alone

everyone’s leaving including me

I thought I had found myself

I thought I was happy

but then I was challenged 

and my soul was broken in two

if they really loved me, how could they do this to me?

how could they really let me fall this way?

if they actually cared why would they make this life my own?

MY LIFE. IS .F*CKED!