I started to read Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
          but it was too hard to bestrung out
          all the time
I started to watch "Gone with theWind"
          but it was too hard to be in love
          and die for someoneelse
I started to listen to the Beach Boys
          but it was too hard to behappy
          and I can't surf
I started to study the causes of World War II
          but it was too hard to be smart
          and I'm a pacifist
I started to dye myhair blue
          but it was too hard to be rebellious
          and it triggers myallergies
I started to hug my mother
          but it was too hard to feel herfrailty
and not think of my own
I started to mow the lawn
but it wastoo hard to fix the broken blade
          and besides, girls aren't to do thosethings
I started to do my makeup
          but it was too hard to be superficial
          and I'm not skinny
I started to think I had a future
          but it was too hardwhen no one else thought so
          and after all, they know best.