At first,

The Spider of blood veins, 

Filled with screaming red, I’m emotional

Surrounded by hospital white, hopeless and stuck

I’m sick, vomit green staining my brain

But I don’t want to get away from the normalcy of habit

I must rid myself of the bitter,

I just don’t know how.

But,

scales, 

A warm yellow, coated with a sweet chocolate brown

I’m rational, fulfilled, the envy green fading from flesh

It reveals a healthy, beautiful tone

Flowers bloom below my feet

I am free, and I want more

I discovered how.

And then,

A Brick wall,

A chilled grief gray drenches me 

Fresh greenery dies, shriveling into an ugly brown

The maternal purple is torn from my heart, leaving a hole

I want to run away, but I am stuck

I need to get away

But I don’t know how.