I proceed here to say

Thank you for today

And I cross my fingers

For a new sun ray

I hope you don't mind, but I do have a question

Since solitude clutches me, hear my confession

Each night I withhold a seething aggression

Each night it is buried under mute suppression

As I suffocate in this airless depression

What is it that makes a human  unique?

Is it the way we use language as a way to speak?

The way we hold value to what is antique?

The way we give Earth our own personal tweak?

The way we loath power but also the weak?

The way some give your name a very loud shriek?

Is it just in our heads as an aimless screening?

Can it be replicated with simple machining?

Is all that it takes just some repeated peening?

Is it luck that we’re all even here convening?

Is there even a soul that needs some cleaning?

Is there ever a time you bother intervening?

Is there really a point, purpose, or meaning?

Dear Father in the sky

Oh please tell me why

If it matters at all

That I even cry

Forgive me, my lord

Bless my gut with a sword

Or my head with a gun

Don't leave me ignored

It's all going to sever

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If I have no purpose, then why am I staying here?

It would be so easy if I could just disappear

Jab my eyes out or my chest right through with a spear

And wander in happiness, nothingness every year

Surely my loved ones would shed a tear after tear

That's what the chemicals in their brains do for careers

Saying, “wail though the end is just destined to be near”

I'll soon be a voice they will never get to rehear

I heard that life has the meaning I give it

Is that an illusion to make me commit?

What if my meaning is to be a spirit?

Or sleep in a casket inside a deep pit?

I'd sadden you if I lived under some grit

But if you’re not there, then why give a sh*t?

Just give it some time and they will all omit

As they still live on under trivial writ

This game gets much harder and I want to quit

When sense tries to greet me, I become a lunatic

My sentiments drip away, making me very sick

I know who I love and with them I will always stick

But I'm just a speck that existence can simply flick

I trust that your love cradles even a heretic

Don't let me be wrong and have all this be but a trick

I hear the years rushing right by with a tick tick tick

They tell me so daily, I can't drown them with music

But wait, I know how to  get my questions answered quick

To see if there's truth to anything that's angelic

Dear Father in the sky

Oh please tell me why

If it matters at all

That I even cry

Forgive me, my lord

Bless my gut with a sword

Or my head with a gun

Don't leave me ignored

I'll close my eyes forever

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