How do you feel pain. 

Do you feel it through mental, physicial or other attributes. 

Do you like it, do you love it, or do you just freaking hate it. 

Do you wince at the paper cuts, do you scream from a broken arm, do you lock yourself up because of what's going on inside of you. 

Do you want more, or do you want less.

Do people see it as self harm, because you like the feel of it.

Do they see it as something wrong with you. 

What do they do?

What do you do?

When I get hurt, when I get hit, kicked, or blood drawn from my nose, I freaking love it.

I love how it feels. 

It’s not seen as self harm.

I don’t self harm.

I don’t cut myself or hurt myself on purpose.

There’s nothing wrong with me.

I'm as normal as normal can get, if there even is a normal. 

It’s just when I feel pain, it distracts me. 

It moves my attention away from my demons and monsters and focuses it on something else.

Something beautiful.

Something majestic.

Something that doesn't last forever, longing for more.

I don’t seek it out. 

I don’t do stuff on purpose to feel pain.

When  it comes, it comes. 

Whether it be through fights, accidents, or just body pain. 

As a kid, I grew up carrying a lot of baggage.

A Lot of things I wished to get out of my head.

Stop the nightmares

Stop the voices in my head.

Stop me from shaking my world. 

People always say were made equal, were made to love one another.

How could we possibly do that with the corrupt system in our society. 

With the pain people cause other people.

They hate it.

They despise it.

They want it to disappear..

I don’t want it to go.

I don’t want it to disappear like so many people in my life. 

I want it to stay with me.

I want it to be apart of me.

I love it so much, because pain tells me I'm still alive.

The best thing about pain, is it tells me I'm not dead yet.