I've never had the task to write about daily life, so, this is my chance to share what I feel about my every days. It always starts simple. I wake up before the first light of day reveals itself and there I lie in hope to see an impressive fifteen hours of my consciousness. I feel so frustrated for the first few periods of school is leading only to utter boredom. All I ever think about is who I will see and what will happen when I do. they could do anything from saying a simple hello without a conversation starter to thinking that I'm unusual and start to avoid me. I come back home to find something to do other than homework, while I'm actually doing homework. It's seems that I just don't want to do the work, but, I know if I don't then I'll think of myself as useless and a failure to life. When I complete what I should do I'm hardly satisfied. the same goes with my downtime. I'm never satisfied with what I do with free time, so, I make myself hyper to get that excitement. I jump around and dance when the hole in my heart is pleading for it to stop. I'm dying on the inside. I go to bed and think about my life so much that it hurts. the only peace and enlightenment that I receive is when I close my eyes and let the mind darken and cloud over black so that I may rest in paradise.