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I Am Me

October 8, 2017
By bo_olsen PLATINUM, Nampa, Idaho
bo_olsen PLATINUM, Nampa, Idaho
28 articles 1 photo 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good"

When I got into the sixth grade, I came out as pansexual.

When I got into the seventh grade, I came out as gender-curious.

When summer started that same year, I came out as transgender/genderfluid.

Since then, I’ve come out of my shell a little bit more. I will never come out of my shell completely. Ever since kindergarten, I’ve been trying to hide my emotions the best I can, although my mouth has a tendency to ramble on and on about pointless things. Ever since kindergarten, the same group of people has been bullying me. These girls at first started out teasing me about pointless, stupid things, but as we got older, their taunts became more vicious.

They don’t matter, it doesn't matter, they don't matter, I told myself constantly.

When I was nine I attempted suicide for the first time. I sat in my closet as hot tears coarsed their way down my face. Then as my hand rubbed against the shiny silver material of my belt, I took it off, wrapped it around my neck, and pulled.

When I opened my eyes, two caseworkers knelt in front of me. One was named Roger, and one was named Chris, and little did I know it at the time, but that was the first of many encounters between me and them.

They took me to the hospital. About five hours later I was cleared to go home. I never shared why I had tried to end my own life.

They got me into therapy, again, this time with a woman named Janoy, who was my therapist for four years.
Now, at the age of thirteen, I have a new therapist. I just met her three weeks ago, but I can already tell that she is a really nice woman. Now, at the age of thirteen, the bullying is starting up again. Now, at the age of thirteen, the suicidal thoughts are worse.

But, unlike when I was nine, I have friends surrounding me. They are my anchor, they keep me safe.

I love them, I love my sexuality and gender, and I love my family.

They are all I need right now.

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This article has 6 comments.

RaineyDay GOLD said...
on Oct. 27 2021 at 11:20 pm
RaineyDay GOLD, Colorado Springs, Colorado
14 articles 0 photos 16 comments

Favorite Quote:
¨The space in between your comfort zone and your dreams is where life takes place.¨
-Helen Keller

Really well written! I'm sorry you have to go through this. Know that you are an incredible and unique human being. It gets better, trust me, but I know it can be hard. You are excellent.

Lee-is-swag said...
on Feb. 2 2021 at 2:17 pm
Lee-is-swag, Kennewick, Washington
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Im sorry u went through bullying!! I relate to this ive been missgendered may times :), i use the pronouns they/it but nobody rllly uses them ive asked ppl to they just dont support it!! :( im waiting awhile till ppl understand more but overall im happy to be who i am!!

on Apr. 7 2019 at 8:36 pm
Marysia PLATINUM, Halifax, Virginia
33 articles 0 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It is nothing to die. It is frightful not to live."
-Victor Hugo

I can relate so much to all of this...this piece has inspired me to write about my own, very similar issues. Thank you so much for this piece. C'est magnifique.

on Jan. 2 2018 at 11:01 am
beenthrohellandback SILVER, Troy, New York
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@bo_olsen wow youve been through so much its good that u have people who support u are amazing do not let anyone tell u different

on Oct. 25 2017 at 9:59 am
bo_olsen PLATINUM, Nampa, Idaho
28 articles 1 photo 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good"

Thanks so much !

on Oct. 24 2017 at 1:04 pm
WolfWhisperer0911 BRONZE, Austin, Texas
1 article 0 photos 623 comments
@bo_olsen Amazing! Congrats on the Red Check!