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Not again

May 19, 2010
By weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;


“Don’t do that! Don’t do that ever again!” I snapped, pulling myself away from him. Hugs and kisses, I scoffed at the thought. I couldn’t handle it from him. Hugs were for those you cared about. I didn’t care for him. Kisses were for those you love. I didn’t love him. Not anymore.

Mike flinched and pulled his arm back. If I hadn’t stopped him he would have given me a bear hug and kissed my cheek with his smoke filled mouth. I broke up with him for a reason. I didn’t want his tobacco-addict lips against mine. But some would say he broke up with me. Why you ask? Because his smoke filled a** was too good for me.

Ha. Funny.

As if. I was the straight-a, freshman, cheerleader. Maybe not a head cheerleader, but I was smart, athletic, and cute. I don’t think you can beat that. I wasn’t Jessica Williams (the unintelligent, cute, head cheerleader), but in my book I was way better. So whatever. The only people who would believe that he was even A LITTLE better than me were addicts themselves. So again, I say “whatever”.

“OHHH!” Gilbert Vasquez teased, “REJECTED!”

Our cafeteria table burst into hysterical giggles. Mike flushed a crabby, unattractive red and moved away. For a star sophmore basketball player, he was very soft. I watched his back and felt a little guilty. He was a smoking addict, but he wasn’t proud of it. He had tried to quit like I told him to, but he gave up. But he wasn’t proud of it. It was the one and only thing I couldn’t fault him for.

In everyone else’s eyes- those who thought I was right to let him go- think he’s just the cocky star player. He was the guy who caught a break and wants to enjoy it. He wasn’t, though. Not to me.

I watched him settle into a seat two tables away filled with some of the other basketball players. He met my eyes and I mouthed the only words I could think of.

“I’m sorry.” He shook his head and looked down. I turned back to the table and saw Jessica staring at me.

“You shouldn’t do that, Erica.”

“Do what?”

“Apologize.” I turned away from her. “You have to remember he isn’t just the basketball smoking addict. He’s worse, okay? Remember that.”

I peeked at her hard gaze and nodded. She wasn’t smart academic wise, but as a senior she was the smartest person I knew. Mike was worse. He did way worse, but that still didn’t matter to me. I wronged him just as much as he wronged me, no matter how much I looked like the victim.

Shane Grayson, who sat across the table, also a freshman and basketball player, gazed at me questioningly. I met his gaze and he immediately looked away. He was probably mad at me. He was one of Mike’s friends. I sighed aloud. Mike was popular too so whatever I seemed to do to him mattered way too much.

It felt like slowly everyone would turn from me. I bet if Jessica wasn’t by my side everyone would have turned from me. I glanced at Mike again.

Everyone was turning already, but they weren’t turning from me. They were turning from him. I’m sorry, I thought again.
-to be continued-



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on Aug. 7 2012 at 4:36 pm
writer3499 GOLD, New Bedford, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;it&#039;s impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might has well not have lived at all-in which case you fail by default.&quot;<br /> -J.K.Rowling

I liked it alot! Great story line!!! Would you mind commenting on my work?? Thanks!

on Nov. 26 2011 at 5:48 pm
Dreamgirl95 BRONZE, Sugarland, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you.

i love this... it's really relatable, it captures the insecurities and confusion that comes with being a teenage girl. Great Job! Keep Writing!

ssophiaa GOLD said...
on Nov. 17 2011 at 2:53 pm
ssophiaa GOLD, Falls Church, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;You cannot operate from a concern of how you&#039;re perceived.&quot;<br /> --Kevin Kittle

good, but i feel it would have been more realistic if he had been a weed addict or an alcoholic or something a tad worse than just cigarettes. would have been more powerful.

on Apr. 11 2011 at 8:07 pm
noonemesswithme, Everett, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was &quot;You&#039;ll never find anyone like me again!&quot; I&#039;m thinking, &quot;I should hope not! If I don&#039;t want you, why would I want someone like you.&quot;&rdquo;

wait it is where wats it called!love the story btw

on Mar. 20 2011 at 3:55 pm
BriannaM. SILVER, Keller, Texas
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oh that was good!!!!:)

AshTree SILVER said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 3:32 pm
AshTree SILVER, Clarksville, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Live your art&quot; -made this one up myself. Simple, but true.

I really liked this can't wait to read part two.

loulou12 said...
on Nov. 8 2010 at 12:46 pm
loulou12, Northridge, California
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i loved this! amazing! (:

on Nov. 8 2010 at 9:53 am
COURTNEEEEY. BRONZE, Limerick, Maine
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;There ain&#039;t no troubles that we can&#039;t rise above, with a handful of faith and a heartful of love.&quot;- Tim McGraw, Carry On.

That was amazing, i loved it! Add more please!

on Sep. 25 2010 at 6:02 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

aww:) thanks.

on Sep. 25 2010 at 5:24 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

aww:) thanks. just so you know there's a part two:)

on Sep. 25 2010 at 5:22 pm
AriesKitty BRONZE, Chambersburg, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Whatever!!

so cool, you did a good job, i loved it!!

on Aug. 19 2010 at 11:27 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

thankyou:)

on Aug. 18 2010 at 9:26 pm
deus-ex-machina14 BRONZE, Stewartsville, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;There are two main tragedies in life. One is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.&quot; -Oscar Wilde

will do!;-)

on Aug. 17 2010 at 10:59 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

2nd part is out:) plz R&R!

on Aug. 13 2010 at 8:45 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

the 2nd part is out:)

on Aug. 13 2010 at 8:44 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;

the 2nd part is out:)

on Aug. 12 2010 at 10:34 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;


on Aug. 12 2010 at 10:33 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;


on Aug. 12 2010 at 10:33 pm
weebnini DIAMOND, San Diego, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Done &amp; Over&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Anyone can give up, it&#039;s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that&#039;s true strength.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.&quot;


on Jul. 26 2010 at 9:01 pm
Annabelle294 SILVER, Branford, Connecticut
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haha yes, i know!