This pain is so real
I want to heal but this seems to be sealed
I want to feel anything but fear
I wish to end this suffering but not with all these rushing tears.
This pain has become part of me, although it is too much to bear.
I'm trying to hear a clear sound inside of me
but , I'm too lost to start and too lost to speak
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me?
I want to say that I feel anything but sadness and bleak
I want to end this s*** now, but how it will go when I can't realize whether I'm awake or stoned.
It been so long, I want you back.
What is it really you want back, I still don't know.
Please make this pain go away, I can't handle it anymore.
I'm tired of screaming without sound, I just want to know how to shut it down
I don't want to fail but I don't deserve to succeed.
I want to be a good friend but I act indeed
What scares me the most is that I can't do anything but fear.
I can't control anything but what confuses me is that I don't want to be controlled.
I want to speak up but the pain makes me speechless more violent,
and when the words are gone , the scars come
All this s*** around me is driving me crazy, I'm trying not to listen, but in one way or another it comes to me
I'm so sick of being hated and ignored
I want someone to give a damn about me, try to understand me, it that so much to ask?
You’re never gonna have that, because no one is gonna love someone like that
People surround me, the good and the bad ones, it does not matter any more
Go to hell all of you , I never planned to stay with you
Everybody fears being broken, but I guess in my case I don't
The damage is done, and nothing in the world is gonna fix that or even make it worse.
My head is clear and I got my headphone in my ears
I don't think about a thing or about anyone considering me