Do you have to dredge up every painful memory.?
Rip apart this careful fabric,
Set free those ugly moments
Every heartache buried,
Every mistake forgotten,
Was lost with a purpose
It's easier to pretend
I can keep going if it never happened
But you won't let it go
Like a record you keep replaying
You dig up my past
And never stop asking
You rechain me to my regrets
Make it impossible to go forward
I don't want to go backwards
I only want to just keep walking
But you keep looking behind me
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
These demons follow me
Braver out of the shadows slinking
Your doubt it gives them power
Over you and over me
Why can't you stand beside me
Instead of questioning all my motives
Yeah you say you love me,
Funny how you don't show it
Flattery means nothing
Empty compliments are frozen
But understanding is golden
Two steps back for everyone forward
I can't carry you, my past, and keep running
We are never alright
We never stop fighting
I'm to far gone for you
Your standards not accepting
So I'll say my goodbyes
You're better off with me leaving
Find a good girl for you
One who's not always breaking
I'll glue myself together
Fix the cracks again
Yeah you added some new ones
But I'll handle it, I always can
Freezing cold but I'm sweating
Going purely on emotion
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
But mostly, I'm sorry I ever believed I might be