dear penitentiary
this is the longest we've
ever been in company

your broken bars are home to me
and i don't think that i can see
without the light you promise me

run run run run
from your god forsaken sun
don't bury me
this casket isn't mine

run run run run
into a realm come undone
because here i can pretend that i am fine

make deals with the god that i try to avoid
make deals with the planet i tend to avoid
make deals with myself, if you stay above ground
then i promise you we'll turn this whole thing around

make deals with the men who don't care about me
my father and brothers and lovers to be
i have been telling him
my mind is irrelevant
he is the room and i am the elephant

dear sweet morality
what is so wrong with being
wrong if its right for me

i refuse to believe
that what is underneath my sleeves
defines who i'm supposed to be

run run run run
he is not what i want
but he's there and that's good enough
run run run run
just like you did when i was young
tell me, was i good enough?

so kill me if i start to rot
sixteen and i haven't got
it all figured out yet

i've been running through this f***ing trench
my heart is dark, my soul is drenched
it's a miracle that i'm not dead

i try to keep my casualities at zero
this transition is hard from victim to hero
when you've played with guns you can't distinguish toys from weapons
drugs from candy, i admit i'm tempted
and i blame this weather on the clouds above me
on the dirty f***ing men who never love me
but i carry thunder and lightning within me and it's time to let it go.