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Should've Been the First

June 7, 2011
By nolongerinuse SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
nolongerinuse SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
“Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.” - Kahlil Gibran


You lay there in my arms, gasping for breath.
Tears stream down my face, 'cause I know you're near death.
Your eyes meeting mine, I beg you to stay,
Though I know in my heart you won't be okay.

The crowd surrounds, silent, watching the scene,
I can't believe that God would be so mean.
It kills me to hurt you, to see you like this,
but if it saves you, there'll be no one to miss.

Please, dear God, don't let this happen,
Don't kill the man who deserves to live.
Please, stay with me, don't quit, don't leave
And I'll give you all the love I can give.
I know you want to stay, know you love it here,
you fear whatever may come after this.
I know it's my last chance to do right by you,
So I lean in for what should've been the first,
but is the last,
kiss.

I don't understand, I'm supposed to be strong.
But I'm falling apart, and it's all going wrong.
Your last moments should be better, in the sun,
Not on a hard ground after a hit and run.

What is wrong with me, that it's taken you dying
to explain when I see you, I feel like flying?
I'm such a coward, stupid ego and worry.
I ignored what I knew you wanted, and for that, I'm sorry.

Please, dear God, don't let this happen,
Don't kill the man who deserves to live.
Please, stay with me, don't quit, don't leave
And I'll give you all the love I can give.
I know you want to stay, know you love it here,
you fear whatever may come after this.
I know it's my last chance to do right by you,
So I lean in for what should've been the first,
but is the last,
kiss.

Oh, sweetheart, I'm so, so sorry,
just so, so, sorry,
we should've been together.
Oh, darling, I'm so, so, sorry,
just so, so, sorry.
We should've been forever

I never gave you a chance,
not a date, not a dance.
And it's all my fault, now I'm paying the price
Please accept my best gift, what should have been
a beggining, not an end

Please, dear God, don't let this happen,
Don't kill the man who deserves to live.
Please, stay with me, don't quit, don't leave
And I'll give you all the love I can give.
I know you want to stay, know you love it here,
you fear whatever may come after this.
I know it's my last chance to do right by you,
So I lean in for what should've been the first,
but is the last,
kiss.

Oh, sweetheart, I'm so, so sorry,
just so, so, sorry,
we should've been together.
Oh, darling, I'm so, so, sorry,
just so, so, sorry.
We should've been forever

I'll never forget you...
I'll always miss you...


The author's comments:
I wrote this after seeing (yes, I know, I'm a total nerd) an episode of "Bones". The episode in question was "The Hole In The Heart". Afterwards, this just came into my mind, and I had to write it.

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on Sep. 11 2011 at 11:24 am
nolongerinuse SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
8 articles 0 photos 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.” - Kahlil Gibran

Thanks very much, my guy friend  (who is like my brother) loves this one, it;s his fav. :)

on Sep. 9 2011 at 6:59 pm
Cantrella PLATINUM, Kamuela, Hawaii
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Favorite Quote:
" Backward, turn backward
oh time in your flight,
make me a child again,
just for tonight." E.A. Allen

A lot of raw emotion in this poem, very well written. It reads sort of like song lyrics with the repeating verses-I'm not sure if that was your intention and the story is very clear as well. Kudos :)