Life is strange now

I mean I feel freer

and I don't like to think about you but

I miss the way we were

I’ve got new friends

and you know that

but I had to protect myself from

someone who wouldn't protect me back

It was like you were always around me

breathing down my neck

I couldn't escape the

broken promises

Like you were always beside me

even when I'm asleep

I couldn't take the

“Are you mad at me”s

I couldn't take it

I miss the way we used to be

I always felt complete

when I was around you

I cry all the time now

I miss the time when I felt safe with you

I miss the deja vu

of sitting and talking and laughing for hours on end

I miss the time when I called you a friend

I'm doing better

two days into the break 

My mind is clearer 

but there's still this feeling I can't shake

I never considered myself

to be overdramatic

Maybe I can gaslight me

into getting you back

But it was like you were always around me

breathing down my neck

I couldn't escape the

broken promises

Like you were always in my head

telling me things like

“I loved them better

wouldn't notice if you died”

I couldn't take it

I miss the way we used to be

I always felt complete

when I was around you

I cry all the time now

I miss the time when I felt safe with you

I miss the deja vu

of sitting and talking and laughing for hours on end

I miss the time when I called you a friend

and even though

i miss you like

a piece of me 

has been ripped out

ive gotta take

another road

cuz you just double

all my doubts

and none of the nice things you say

can stop me from feeling this way

i hope we go back to friends

but for now this is how it ends

I couldn't take it

I miss the way we used to be

I always felt complete

when I was around you

I cry all the time now

I miss the time when I felt safe with you

I miss the deja vu

of sitting and talking and laughing for hours on end

I miss the time when I called you a friend

But I don't know if I'll ever call you that again