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Toxic but Boxed in

December 30, 2021
By Hex SILVER, Raleigh, North Carolina
Hex SILVER, Raleigh, North Carolina
6 articles 2 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Homework is like medicine.... If you take too much, it can kill you,”


Stressful

Head full

of their broken parts and hears

 

"She said"

"He said"

They heard it from a friend

 

"Toxic"

"Boxed in"

Will you please just stop it

 

Your problems are your own

It doesn't mean that you can't share

But now i feel alone

'Cause i have what you're to bare

 

Flying

Dying

Buying their excuses

 

Lying

Trying

To ignore the nooses 

 

I'm-losing it

Now i for sure know I can't do this

I'm-losing it

Trapped in a box tapped shot by my own best-friend

I can't do a thing

Please don't be so clueless

I'm dropping hints like you spread gossip

You're hurting me

With your words, baby

 

I have bruises from the countless dumb mistakes we've made together

Feels like we've known each other for forever

 

I'm losing it

Don't matter that you think I'm perfect

I got my own hitch

 

I've tried to leave, to walk away

But you came running down the way

You asked why i wouldn't try to stay

Then i felt guilty, and played

 

Is it wrong to care about my mental health?

Am i wrong to care about myself?

 

I wish i wasn't so captivated by the pain


The author's comments:

This is my own sad little way of telling my friend (who will probably never see this) that she needs to just let me make the decisions that are best for me. No matter how many times i've tried to leave this situation, i always end up back in the same place, at the starting line, prepared to get hurt over and over again. If you're in a toxic relationship, please be braver than me and get out of it as soon as you have the chance.


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Hex SILVER said...
on Feb. 24 at 11:39 pm
Hex SILVER, Raleigh, North Carolina
6 articles 2 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Homework is like medicine.... If you take too much, it can kill you,”

@Afra I literally will die if there is not another season!!

Afra DIAMOND said...
on Feb. 5 at 11:55 pm
Afra DIAMOND, Kandy, Other
61 articles 6 photos 1330 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You can’t ask other people to believe you and vote for you if you don’t back yourself."
-Jacinda Ardern-

"If I can make someone's day brighter, happier, better, that makes me happier."
-Ava Max-

"A writer must never be short of ideas."
-Gabriel Agreste- (Fictional character- Miraculous)

"A Bridge Has Two Sides."
-Elsa- (Fictional character- Frozen)

“I knew who I was as a girl but I had to find who I was as a woman.”
-Delta Goodrem-

Very powerful poem!!! I just loved reading it...👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
BTW, I read your profile and bingo, I too LOVE Violet Evergarden(who doesn't?) ...It is so heart-touching...Especially in the movie in which finally she reunites with Gilbert...I literally melted in joy and sorrow throughout the show...💜💜💜