When I pass that boy in the hallway today
I have no idea what to say
There are a million things rushing through my head
Waiting to be said
Waiting to be read
But I can’t decide.

I live my life in a constant state of confusion on what to do
I am clueless
I know it my mind
But sometimes it’s hard to find
The right words to use.

So I mumble
A jumble of phrases and sounds
As I feel all self confidence going down
And the world seems to crumble around me.

And the words that I use seem to drown me
Under a sea of concerns.

I’ve never known how to differentiate
From when to whisper and when to vociferate
But I always seem to choose wrong.

There are voices inside of my head screaming
Because they want me to do something different
And when I listen
It doesn’t help.

It’s hard for your mind to be in conflict with your mouth
With Every syllable being a painful pinprick
To my self conscious brain.

But sometimes that’s just how it goes
Maybe nobody even knows
That anxiety control everything out of my mouth.

The worst part is that it doesn’t stop
When the conversation does
It haunts me forever
And it never leaves my mind.

I find
That my minor
Mistakes scare me in the future
As I contemplate all of the finer
Details in the things that I say.