Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d absolutely do anything for them. They hurt you and you don’t even think about hurting them back. They mean everything to you and you can't stand yourself when they're not a part of your life. When you spend over a year with someone who was always there for you every second of every day and then one day just randomly losing that connection to something that wasn't worth it. You feel dead inside. Like you can't even feel a heartbeat anymore. And that's the only thing in your mind. That's the only thing you want. You really wish it wasn't beating. You really wish you couldn't feel the pain.