Since day one I grasp at the air

I seek an anchor and asylum

I held her hand, she raised me

Fed me and clothed me

Took care of me when I was sick

I held her hand when she gave me life

I held her hand as we walked the parks

To tease and to laugh, dance under a tree

Always there to hold my hope

I held her hand saying death do us part

I held her hand when peace shattered in wind

Her cold grip ever present, ever strong

I held the steel that told me I was safe

But when I held her hand thunder steel come forth

I held her hand when fighting my kin

I held her hand as she stood to sing

A comfort in body, and more so in mind

Words unspoken of past horrors seen

Always hard

I held her hand as I presented a ring

I held her hand as she lay weak but bold

The beeps and rushing bodies around

The ever present doctors alight

The eyes slowly losing sight

I held her hand till warm turned to cold

What hand can I hold

Whether peace or strife

I am alone