through my sleepless haze
my eyes catch your silhouette.
i lunge for you, seized
by a seismic jolt of want;
i grope and grasp for you
even though you aren’t there;
i crave, i pine, i yearn.

if only you knew
how every part of me protests,
how my chest sighs,
for the thought of you clings
to my already-heavy heart,
how my shuddering lungs scream,
for with every breath i take
you snatch the air from me.

no euphoria is this destructive.
you wrap me in your deadly embrace,
stroke a finger down my throat.
it’s inexplicably exhilarating,
yet i wonder
as i thrash and writhe from the pain,
why i wander whole worlds for you
just to sink into your sweet poison,
the blissful agony of your touch.

just one, one more time.
the last, the last time.