In case you were gone,
the puppet strings inside me
collapsed and hit the ground.

And you say I couldn’t ever
get you
but I don’t have to understand to be in
love.

In case you weren’t watching,
my tears were filling up the street.

And you say the water’s
beautiful
but there’s a difference between beautiful and
bittersweet

and right now the bitter is stronger.

In case it was just a blur for you,
that was the first time the nightmares subsided

and for a while I was sipping on clover
and blue printed paper
and your skin
instead of train tracks and brokenness
and everything about this memory.

In case you weren’t listening,
I stood by the cliff’s edge
and called your name again and again and again and again and

in case you didn’t notice,
I was falling apart at the seams for you.