I love you… One.
Early years, so happy and full of life.
He would see me every day.  After school,
He would be there, smiling to see me smiling.
Driving up the road, the road I knew so well
Going to see the prancing, majestic beauties
One of our favorite things, seeing the wind,
Comb their long beautiful hair, as the same wind
So soft and warm, kissed our faces.
Showed me how to feed them, fresh green grass.
I was scared, of their firm hard bite. 
He ensured me, I would be alright.  He had my trust,
The trust of my life, and to no surprise, I was just fine.
Headed home on the road, the one I knew so well,
We climbed the hill, butterflies danced in our stomachs,
As we went down, and he went down so quick.
The other hill, as tall as a rollercoaster, hands flew up-
Like it was real.  Arriving home, whatever our heart desired-
Playing ball, hide and seek, he did whatever I wanted.
I was his world; hopefully, I still am.
Hope he knows my love is whole, not a milligram.

Elementary years, my dad picked me up.
From school, we went right home.  Sometimes,
See my pap, the time was ticking for us, and-
Without knowing… it was ticking for him too.
The time grew so heavy, not one minute to spare.
Too heavy, for the one who loved me… the most.
I saw him grow sicker, weaker by the week.
Not realizing, he grew sicker, I grew farther.
His body was giving in, neglect or medication?
A daily basis.  Was he sick from ill? Or from my neglect?
One medication, a road to death, his heart weakened…
I grew farther, he grew weaker… I didn’t know that-
Then.  Sadly, I was still his world… no matter what.

Middle School, high school, I saw him on Sunday.
A half hour, if I was lucky.  Weeks would pass…
Not a phone call did I think to give.  I was so- busy,
But why- why- didn’t I- just call?  Just a simple thought of love
Is all he ever wanted, nothing else… was ever asked of me.
I failed to do one thing for him, all he ever wanted.
Hospital visits, a daily activity.  To weak-
To walk, breathe alone.  Long time of pain…
Medication, abandonment… slowly engulfed him
A pool of depression, I still didn’t call, he did…
I failed to answer his plead for help.
Bruises, dark violet, like a low-lit sunset.
One night calling, tears, fear, confusion- to me.
I called in tears, fear, and confusion…to God.  Take him-
To happiness- health, on earth, or home to you…
If he goes home, please take him quickly… without pain
Ripping at his heart.  The next day, angels found him-
Within minutes.  I was left- shock- pain- joy- relief, he went home…
But not to me.  Lessons from this man, nothing less than true.
If you are not present for someone who loves you,
They will not give in, they will reach for you for years on end
…because they love you.  I know it was a heart attack.
His heart- attacked by neglect; for I was not there…
When he needed me most.  God answered my prayer…
His was answered too… he took him home to be happy- loved.
He wasn’t happy… waiting… someone to show him love.
I wish my full heart… I could have showed him…
Before his brilliant light… went entirely dim.