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I Have To

March 1, 2016
By HaliBug PLATINUM, Apopka, Florida
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HaliBug PLATINUM, Apopka, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"Everything seems impossible until it's done," - Nelson Mandela

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Weird.
Ugly.
Fat.
Stupid.
These words haunt me,
Even into adulthood.
I mask my emotions behind my humor,
because that's the only way to live.
I push back my feelings,
behind an empty toilet,
behind a barren plate,
behind a bloodied arm.
I hide,
because that's the only way to live.
They hurt,
And so do I,
but they show it,
when I can't.
I want to,
but I can't.
They'll discredit me,
abandon me,
hurt me,
call me those ugly words.
I hide inside of myself,
because I have to.

© Lindsey Dennis, Marblehead, MA

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