i.
when i pressed into you i meant it
i mean i loved you
and i loved you hard
i wanted to untie the knots in your bones, turn the twists into truths and in this way show you
show you, i mean love you
i wanted to love you between the screws holding you together, between
your broken mind and the holes in your hands,
i knew i could handle the weight
when you laid your head on my breast
i could feel your breath, only wonder
if you were feeling mine.

ii.
when you pressed into me you meant
nothing. you needed a body anybody
and a body is a hungry thing
so you pressed hard
on me, you left marks on me
tied up my bones and untruthed me
in this way you showed me
showed me, i mean floored me
wrestled me into the mud of my own sweet intact heart
i thought i could handle the weight
when you laid your hand on my breast
i could feel you press, only wonder
if you were feeling me press back.