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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

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m1na GOLD said...
on Apr. 28 2019 at 11:43 am
m1na GOLD, Olympia, Washington
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This is an incredible poem!

on Mar. 26 2014 at 3:54 pm
AloneandFree SILVER, Williamston, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
Rise above the storm and you will find the sunshine.
-Mario Fernandez

Wow...i dont even know what to say that was amazing.. cant wait to read more

lovely_bones said...
on Jan. 18 2013 at 1:53 pm
lovely_bones, Houston, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
i love makeing poetry,i write books, very helpful,kind, firendly,im americahn mixed with italian,white,mexicain, love spending time with family , love reading poetry, books

i love your poem it was so bueatiful to  me like i have never read something like this that makes me feel excited your a good poet

on Dec. 31 2012 at 3:17 pm
sadesdd DIAMOND, Elma, Iowa
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I love the last line because the emotional part of it just gets to you.

on Oct. 16 2012 at 3:19 pm
Savannainthesky GOLD, West Suffield, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
"It may have been in pieces.. but I gave you the best of me"-Jim Morrison(the doors)

That was really emotional, and good chice of woords,keep it up!

on Jul. 20 2012 at 7:14 pm
ctowle PLATINUM, Claremont, New Hampshire
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Favorite Quote:
life and love go hand in hand take your fall and hope you land

wow! i got goosebumps this is magnificant great choice in words.

LunaLives GOLD said...
on Apr. 15 2012 at 12:01 pm
LunaLives GOLD, South Bend, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
Because I can!-Me "Life is a choice and death is a decision"-Lil Wayne

I have been in that exact same situation before.

on Mar. 1 2012 at 1:32 pm
jeseer PLATINUM, Auburntown, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
"Truth without love is a killer, but love without truth is a liar. The Bible commands us to have both: It says to speak the truth in love."--Elliott Nesch
"To love another person is to see the face of God."--Victor Hugo

Wow. That was great!

navien BRONZE said...
on Jan. 26 2012 at 10:07 pm
navien BRONZE, Newmarket, Other
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well this was just lovely :)

on Jan. 26 2012 at 2:49 pm
Sammy817 BRONZE, Fort Worth, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
You can't break what is already broken

Amazing!!!!! :)

Esraa BRONZE said...
on Jan. 4 2012 at 12:39 pm
Esraa BRONZE, Bronx, New York
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its very emotional nd deep thoughts in it

on Jan. 4 2012 at 9:38 am
poet.lover PLATINUM, Pineville, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
"Never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in this life."

it's amzing how you connected the beginning of this poem to the end of it and how you achieved that with such deep emotions. i wonder what caused this poem to come about...and also, who's journal it was. but this poem reaches such deep emotions and i really love it! please, look at some of my work, thanks :)

on Dec. 13 2011 at 8:42 pm
WaffleManThing, Vallejo, California
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Favorite Quote:
"just keep swimming..." by dory. :)

i woved it, btu i will forever wonder what was it that he read from her journal of the previous night?

on Dec. 13 2011 at 5:39 am
JLNJLN BRONZE, Henderson, Nevada
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Favorite Quote:
As of this moment, a favorite of mine is...

"Tell me and I'll forget. Show me and I'll remember. Involve me and I'll understand." ~Confucius

This is the epitome of beauty. It is awe-inspiring. I literally heard myself spill the world, "wow," from my mouth upon my completion of reading this. Please, give me more.

sarawho382 said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 11:02 pm
sarawho382, Del Mar, California
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i really like this one! keep it up all your work is amazing :)

autumn8 BRONZE said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 9:46 pm
autumn8 BRONZE, Seattle, Washington
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This a really amazing poem..I love the way you tell the story because its not exactly straight forward, its kind of goes backwards like a memory does. 

Fia-fia BRONZE said...
on Nov. 21 2011 at 5:15 pm
Fia-fia BRONZE, Bethesda, Maryland
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wonderful! I dont completely understand this, but that is part of the fun of poetry. Thank you


on Nov. 21 2011 at 4:58 pm
RaveFire PLATINUM, Vancouver, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes You Have To Give Up Your Life To Save It." ~some book that i don't remember the name of

"Live Life Like There's No Yesterday" ~ random billboard

"If No One Can Hurt You, Then Nobody Loves You" ` ~ Kerli?


on Nov. 21 2011 at 12:51 pm
MarissaWhitecloud SILVER, Oskaloosa, Iowa
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Wonderful Poem. I thought it was beautiful.

on Nov. 21 2011 at 9:15 am
makaylaaarianna BRONZE, Covington, Georgia
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Great poem. Check out mine !