They said my time was soon.
That i could not hold on much longer
That my journey was almost over
That strength could not make me stronger

Why did you do this to me?
Spread through me like a rash
And that let my brain think that it is okay
to say things one should never say.

Why did you paralyze me?
Paralyze me from head to toe with madness
Paralyze me from my only way of happiness
Paralyze me from the world

But what about everything I aspired to do?
Like go to college and get an education
Like write that book i have been dreaming of
Like fall in love and raise a family

But what about everything i wanted to see?
Like Greece and Venice and Japan
Like all the memories i wanted to make
Like my children growing up

Sickness is like an ocean wave.
It smacks you when you are not ready for it.
And pummels you
And traps you far underneath, refusing to release you

This horrid disease mixes everything up.
Scatters you like a puzzle
Where the pieces are only put back together
if you happen to be lucky.

Do not take a beautiful life for granted.
For it should be cherished and remembered
That is what i have learned from laying in this bed
physically and emotionally dismembered.

Do not let an uneventful or sorrowful time ruin life for you.
Like I let cancer do to me
Like i am offly angry to admit is completely true