The darkness has consumed me, wholly from the inside out
I have lost all feeling, it’s all gone
The things you say just don’t affect me anymore
Hatred is here, sympathy is demolished

I am numb, to emotion, to love, to life around me
Forget me, it’ll be easy, I promise
So much pain, so much hatred, so much of everything gone wrong
It’s time to be done

I do not know myself anymore
This is because of you, you did this to me
You took over my mind, you took over my body
You had control over my thoughts and actions for the longest time

I can’t do anything right for you, I never have been able to
A failure is all you see
You worry because I don’t smile, because I don’t laugh
But when was the last time you did?

You spend your nights worried about me
What am I feeling?
What am I thinking?
If you want the answer here it is

I hate life, especially the one I live
People say I am special, that I have the ability to make others happy
But what happens when I can’t make myself happy
That is when, I realize I am worthless

The immorality that has consumed me is all that I have become
No matter how much I try to escape the past it will never change
All the pain and misery you cause me remains
No matter how much it shows, you don’t notice

Forgiving is easy, forgetting is not
But now even forgiving is tougher than it used to be
The more I sit in the darkness, the harder it is to do anything while you are around
Love is gone, and you should be too

Now I have fallen too far into hell
I have become comfortable with the uncomfortable
And I cannot bear to pull myself away from it
It has become my armor and my shadows

Growing up with you was miserable, terrible, horrifying
You hurt me mentally, I am broken, because of you.
I hated the way you treated me, the way you made me feel like nothing
Now you got your way, I am nothing