I want to cry
Why, I dont know
There is something deep inside
And it wont let me go

I hate feeling like this
I hate how it's something I cant suppress
It proves something's amiss
And it leaves me feeling powerless

I want to make it go away
But how?
It insists that I let it stay
And a home it makes of me now

It's something I cant fight
Because in the end it always wins
It laughs in my face, and tell me it's right
And the infestation begins

I hate the way it makes me feel
Like Im not good enough
And it makes the pain real
And drains me of all love

I want to defeat this thing
I cant do it by myself
But I dont see anybody offering
Please, can anyone help?!

Once again, no replies
Once again, Im left alone
Maybe I have too good of a disguise
Or maybe i put on too good of a show

And they wonder why
Im so screwed up
Maybe if they opened their eyes
And actually looked

Maybe then they'd see
Just maybe then they'd understand
That reason Im me
Is because of them