All the words I will not say
the feelings I refuse to share
Constant feeling of dismay
I'm afraid
you wanted the truth
I let down the blockade
I'm not sure what this will do
How it will help
Maybe understand things from my view
Its easier for me to hide
I don't like to open up
I am more comfortable staying inside
You always ask me why I am so disconnected
It is because I am scared of reality
I'm trying to keep myself protected
It's a bad habit I know
I'm working on it
But it only gets harder as I grow
I am petrified of reality
I don't want to face it
It will destroy me with its brutality
Some times it feels like a race
Other times its a fight to survive
Either way i'm in last place