I let it happen again.
When will I learn?
I know that every time I allow my heart to trust, to care
It will end with my being in pain.

I should never have trusted you
And now, I pay the price.
Because you've broken my trust and heart like the glass in the window.
I should not have let you so close.

Now, I must add another scar.
You knew all along it was just a game.
While I was left in the dark so that you could keep
Your play thing.

My heart is a joke, a game, a play thing for you.
You are no better than the others.
You lied many times.
This was the last straw.

I had such silly fantasies that you actually cared.
Everytime you said you did,
You lied.

I am so tired of the lies.
It does not endear you to me.
It only forces me to wish I could hate you.

But you are in my heart,
Inside a scar
Just like the others.

But no matter what I do
I cannot seem to hate you.
No matter how many times I rethink
About your lies, my truths, my hopes

I still cannot hate you.
Will you not allow me to?
Do you still wish to play this game?

I truly do not.
I just wish to be free of you.
I wish to hate you, and allow my heart to be free.
Will you allow me that?