Every day I see a little piece of you fade away
Some shard of you blow away in the wind
I want to save you, to piece you back together
But I’m not fast enough
You once were a brilliant blue
But now you are just a dull gray
And I keep asking myself what I could have done to save you
But now it’s too late.

You look like an old photo now
Black and white
Silent
Cold.

And I miss you, but the thin plastic screen separates us
And I cannot reach you
And I see your lips moving but I cannot hear you speak
And I wonder what you are saying
And I miss you.

I still remember your brilliant blue
It was inspiring, unforgettable
I’m sorry you had to lose it
But you had to grow up and wipe it out.

Sometimes I wonder if you chose right
Because mostly I think you chose wrong.

And I lost you somewhere along the line
I cannot pinpoint a date or time
But I’ve missed you ever since
Did I ever tell you how much I loved the blue?
I think you knew.

Sometimes I wake up crying
For no reason at all
And remember it’s because I lost you
And you reappear at my door sometime later
And I see you in black and white
And I think it is worse than losing you.

And I miss you
I do.

We don’t talk anymore
Not much
And I can entertain you with laughter
But mostly I just see your rage.

People say rage is red
But on you it is gray like everything else
And any hue would be better
But that is all you have
And it makes you look ugly
Have I ever told you that?
I don’t think so
Because I don’t want to break you
But gray doesn’t suit you
It doesn’t.

I want to take you to a shrink
So I know you are still in there
A speck of blue in that black and white
Because I haven’t seen it for six years
And I think it’s gone.

You know how to get the blue back,
So why won’t you
It was a good color on you
Brought out your dimples
I’ll never see those dimples dance again.

And I miss you.
But you don’t.
Because you like the black and white.

I just realized
Maybe I don’t really miss you
I just miss you in blue
Or maybe just the blue
Not you.
Not anymore.