She was lying there
Motionless
I was scared
So was everyone else
I looked around
Tubes coming out
Needles going in
She was in pain
couldn't’t stand it
Why did it have to be her?
Why not me?
couldn't’t hold the tears back
But I had to
All three of my children watching me
The tears pouring out of there little eyes
I had to leave
I find myself in the hallway
Crying
That’s not what men do
I can’t cry
But I can’t stop
I feel the tears on my tongue
The saltiness is the best thing I’ve had in a while
She will be ok
I hope
I can’t imagine life without her
I can hear my own weeping
I’ve hit the point
The breaking point
I can’t
I’m done
She’s going to be fine
I know she is
But I’m not sure I’ll be
Will I?