Look at me,
Look at you.
Think there’s nothing I can do.
All we wanted was to be like them,
Knew we’d get there in the end.
Didn’t know what it would take,
Didn’t know about the stakes,
Didn’t think once was enough,
Didn’t think it was bad stuff.
We were wrong.

All they told you was that it was good.
It would make you better.
You would be the cool guy.
Figured you’ll bring me with you,
Your beauty, your daring becoming mine.
For a moment, it seemed perfect,
Just like what they told you,
Just like you promised me.
We could do anything.

Then the shadows set in,
And the world turned dark.
Your legs couldn’t hold you,
So we couldn’t dance.
Your lips were cracked and dry,
So we couldn’t sing.
Seemed like we couldn’t do anything.

Soon, you stopped caring-
If it wasn’t in a needle,
It didn’t matter.
Everyone abandoned ship.
It was clear it was sinking.
Soon the fiery horizon would swallow you.
Yet I stood by your side,
Strong,
Still steering, still trying to pull you out.
Still hoping that this guy,
And the guy I loved,
Was the same person.

You couldn’t see it.
I could.
All the scars,
Like little mouths,
Always hungry,
Always wanting more than you could give,
And draining you dry.
Now, all you wait for is the next fix.
Now, all you care about is the drug.
They told you that it would make you cool.
They told you that,
With this stuff,
You could do anything.
They were wrong.

The sun started setting on you,
And I found myself standing in the dark.
Next to you.
Never letting you go,
Never letting you fall.
I was still holding you up,
When you couldn’t hold me.
I loved you,
But you loved meth.

When you weren’t there,
And the phone rang.
When I heard your mothers silver tears,
Over her golden boy,
I knew what had happened.
I knew what you had done.
Those little mouths,
So innocent,
Had taken too much.
And now nothing would be the same.

The walls were white.
As white as your hands,
And nearly as cold.
Nearly, but not quite.
I held you until the end.
I stayed on board until the ship sank,
Until the walls closed in,
And tore me away.

I never did enough.
I never was enough
To keep you from that drug.
I could have tried harder.
I could have told you I didn’t care,
About the dangerous,
Cool
Guy.
About the guy I didn’t know,
About the guy that was you,
And meth.

All I wanted was you back.
The boy I danced with,
In the rain.
The boy who didn’t care
About how his hair looked.
About how every one saw him.
The boy who cared about me.

Look at me,
Look at you.
Think there’s nothing I can do.
All we wanted was to be like them,
Knew we’d get there in the end.
Didn’t know what it would take,
Didn’t know about the stakes,
Didn’t think once was enough,
Didn’t think it was bad stuff.
We were wrong.
And now you’re dead.