I use to be happy
not just smile
I use to know what I want
not just let others decide for me
I use to be completely honest
not sugar-code things
did that make me heartless?
I felt like it made me bold
did that make me judgemental?
I felt like that made me alert
does stopping really make me mature or careful or any other bizarre thing people could think to name
I felt like it make me more of a people pleaser, or another ideal person the world can control.
All I know is i use to be happy
I use to feel free
but more importantly I didn't feel like a part of society
I felt like...me