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July 18, 2011
By Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
10 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Hope for the best, expect the worst."
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley


Proof I am broken beyond repair
I tell the tragic tale of my past.
Innocence. Ripped away.
Rape. Brutal.
Abuse. Beaten senseless.
Advantage. Taken of too often.
Love. True and false.
Lust. Deep and dangerous.
Despair. Cold and shattered.
Desperation. Seeking a way out.
Failed freedom. Nine times. All alone.

My eyes shift uncomfortably
around and around, unsure.
Spill tears like leaky watering cans.
Uncontrollable, racing tears down my cheeks.

My lips kiss and touch boys
smile and blow kisses to them.
But pout and frown when alone
because the pain I feel is all too real.

My hands clap and wave
raise the roof and touch people.
Wring one another when anger, stress, sadness are too much,
and clutch a small knife, drenched in blood.

My mouth talks, flirts, giggles, laughs.
Tastes tongues and others.
Screams and yells at everyone and anyone.
Begging for anything to notice me dying inside.

Proves the ultimate truth.
Scars scatter my arm, wrist, hand, and hips.
Looks back at starving, binging, purging.
Hides the bruises from abusive boys and men.
Disguises the broken little girl with a strong young lady.
Covers the eyes that haven't rested in days.
Masks the pure truth.
Radiates deceiving lies.

The author's comments:
I've been through a lot, pretty obvious by this poem. Pretty raw, hope it's not too much for some people. Tell me what you think!

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on Aug. 4 2011 at 9:40 am
Alcanno DIAMOND, Mexia, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is
made up of."

-- Bruce Lee

I can definitely relate to this :\ I love the format you used, and the descriptions you included make your poem stand out, makes it memorable. I have a couple poems "Considering the Lies" and "Looking in the Mirror" that are similar to this if you wanna check them out. Thanks and keep writing - I know I'll keep reading!

on Jul. 24 2011 at 8:32 pm
JustBelieveInMe BRONZE, Athens, Georgia
3 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
"And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart the only dream that mattered had come true... In this life I was loved by you"

I love your rawness and details!

on Jul. 20 2011 at 5:06 pm
DinosoarJen DIAMOND, Scottsville, New York
86 articles 0 photos 82 comments

Favorite Quote:
Just another casualty.
It's sad but true.
And even dead I'm still ahead
of most of you.

You are very strong. Stay that way!

You're very talented. Maybe you can check out my stuff sometime? I would appreciate it! Keep up the good work!!



on Jul. 18 2011 at 3:51 pm
Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
10 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Hope for the best, expect the worst."
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley

Aww thank you so much :] you have to keep writing too, its so amazing!

on Jul. 18 2011 at 2:40 pm
Cortney.Lynn GOLD, Hughesville, Pennsylvania
19 articles 2 photos 12 comments
I really like this one...I like how its so open and just admiting whats going on and really shows how shes feeling. You are really good, you must keep writing!(: