Where do you wander
When you
disappear
into the night?
With a pack of cigarettes
Hidden in a pouch
In your purse,
As if we were oblivious
To the smell,
the familiar smell,
of freshly burnt Marlboro lights.

Where do you wander
When you need
To ponder?
Does the darkness take you
Places we cannot?
You don't talk much,
And sometimes silence
is too much
When everyone else
is screaming,
at the top of their lungs,
and you know you've said
too little.

Where do you wander
When you leave us before dinner?
Do you talk to your friends,
the ones I thought we were?
Do you wander down empty
Cul de Sacs
And bump into shadows
of rebellious teenagers?

Where do you wander
When I feel so alone?
Are you waiting for
An answer?
Or are you waiting for
A call?
It's time to come back,
Back to me,
Back for our apology.