Twisting words inside my head
Replaying
Over and over
I pull them out of my mind
Like they're alphabet beads on a string
They don't stop
They won't
I'll be stuck like this forever
Crazy
Driven mad
Perhaps you've felt this way
Perhaps you haven't
Like something is running wild in your mind
But it won't ever go away
I run my fingers through my hair
It seems to have a calming effect
But it still leaves my hands tense
My fingers clench
Even as I type these words
My hand
Hurts
This is me
There is no line between the author and the speaker
They taught me to keep them separate
But I can only wear my own shoes
This is so real
The emotion
I feel tingles up and down my spine
Life is a strange, strange thing
I feel like a dancer
Fighting with words
Instead of limbs
Trying to match the rhythm
Hold me
Someone
I need someone to hold me
Close
Are my eyes closed or open?
I don't even know anymore
As I sit in my chair
I rock back and forth
My right leg aches
So does my right hand
I'm sweating and I don't know why
My eyes are tired
I just put hair up
Tentatively held in place by a clip that's too small
I am human
I am real
I am not some hidden creature
Created by words on a page
The words are what keeps me alive
Someone
Please
Help
Me