Afraid.
My mind thought of
all kinds of things,
explanations,
for your behavior-
Distant and quiet,
Gone, missing.
One possibility
stood out.
It mad the
most sense.
I chose it.

Fragile.
Letting go was the
most difficult
thing I'd ever done.
But, the pain
needed to be spared.
I couldn't take
another hit.
Especially,
in the heart.


Vulnerable.
I ran to him
because he cared.
With him,
I wouldn't be
alone.
He half-filled
the hole you left.
I didn't want the
lonliness
to seep in.
So he was there to
block it.

Regret.
Reminiscing did not
help.
It was a
slap in the face.
Memories
Seemed father and father away
everytime
they were thought of.

Realization.
You cared,
when I believed
you didn't.
My conclusion had
been wrong.
I had made a
mistake.
A mistake that
cost me
everything.

Pain.
I let go
of the
one
most important
person
in my life
because I was afraid.
I hurt that person;
broke his heart,
because of stupidity.
Now the
forever
is broken,
because of me.