I step outside
a strangling heat engulfs me at every corner
slowly my body relaxes,
as if allowing this intruder to enter
I can't breathe,
sweat starts rolling down my face, my back, my arms and legs
but I can't move,
I am a deadweight
my eyes are open but they don't see
my arms are hurting but I am numb
a light breeze wafts through,
coming to my rescue,
cooling off my body,
allowing movement
I raise a shaking hand to my cheek,
the sweat is still
dripping, pouring, trickling,
down my face
but it isn't sweat,
this substance is coming from a different source,
one that is used for moments of true sadness,
true heartbreak,
I take my hand away,
what I see next is
incomprehensible,
blood is coating my hand
the blood of a girl no longer in control of her self