Harsh memories
Cold thoughts
You think it would heal over time
But in truth the raw pain
Of it all
Just keeps tearing deeper
Until what i feel is crushing me down deeper
Into the broken places of myself
I feel myself shattering
Lost and alone
Slowly part of myself disappears
Gone
My body abandened by an empty heart
A heart laced with poison
Fading into the darkness of the world
The shadows take me
Far away
I know only hate, pain, agony, loss
I scream into the heavy black air
My anger takes control
It rips me apart
Destroys me
I fall to my knees and the pain washes over me Again
New sobs shake my body
But deep within me something comes to life
Something I'd lost a long time ago
Lost in the fog of pain
Hope.
I sat there shaking and shivering
Slowly I regained my strength
I stood up
I didn't feel so hollow anymore
I was still far to broken to work
But now I could at least
See the day when
The loose threads that create me
Would stop pulling apart
I will be Strong enough to bear the pain
After all it never fades
You are left with
Harsh memories and
Cold thoughts
You just have to decide how to use them.